the desire to do better....

I just feel that I could be doing so much better with my life. I've never been one to make plans because I'm afraid that my feelings will get hurt when I don't follow through. And I don't follow through very often.

But here I am, sitting in the junky room, playing on facebook and writing this blog where there are other things I should be doing. Like cleaning my room or trying to figure out my career or going back to school, working out. All of these things right now would make me a better person.

So 2009 is my year - or at least that's what I keep saying. I have to do something new. Life is unexciting. Not boring - I have too much fun. But I don't feel like there's anything in my life that is helping my brain grow. So, my goals for 2009 (I'll keep it simple so that a year from now I won't be looking at this thing thinking "I had plans. I didn't do any of them.)

1. Be more responsible. Clean room, well-managed money, nice, professional wardrobe, sensible thinking and planning. Those types of things make a well-rounded person. And I have none of those things. Since college I have mismanaging EVERYTHING. But you will only get out of life the same amount you put in and I want alot. So I must learn the difference between want and need and take care of what I have (Jada, your want/need signs were a success!!!).

2. Take care of my body. My body feels great when I exercise and eat right. My body feels bad when I'm lazy and eat a bunch of junk. I realize now how bad I feel with all the sugar and heavy food in my body and I don't even enjoy the sweets as much as a really good salad or sandwich (except ice cream and cheesecake...lol). I'm gonna have this body for a long time so I should treat it right.

3. Advance my career. It's time to go back to school. Plan for the fall (???)

See, three simple things. But the require me to get off my ass and get motivated....the worlds hardest thing....