Are you waiting for a special occasion

To give me your heart

Cause I need a little confirmation

To make a real start

Don't wait till it's too late

Are you ready to show me?

Are you ready to love me?

You see in a wayI have been drifting down a river

To nowhere

And you're giving me nothing

And if you're ready to be my everything

If you're ready to see it through this time

And if you're ready for love then

This I will bring

But I'm not gonna wait for you forever this time

Fefe Dobson - "Everything"

I love that song. Very approppiate.

Fresh from Seattle/Cali trip.

Life is good. I am very blessed.

AWELTTAES

In Seattle for a few days. Much needed get away. There is too much to think about and deal with in Mobile. I have some real thinking to do after last night. It was interesting.

But I ain't thinking today.....

I am not a guy.

I am a girl.
Cannot try to be a better guy then the guys.
They will win because they are guys.
You are a girl, does not make you lesser.
But a guy, you can't be!
Be a girl. There's everything right about that.

ok, its been a while....

So long since I've blogged. Let's cover all the bases here:

Money: Still ain't got it!!! There is a little light at the end of the rainbow, as I am paying and paying and struggling and soon I will be debt free...except the student loans of course. I've brought 2 pairs of shoes since my birthday (2!!!! Can you believe it?). I have NOT been shopping. If I keep it up, I'll do good! Still, I have had a few unexpected things pop up like a broken computer that needs to be replaced!!! Ugh!!!

Boys: Yeah, they're still that.... Although things have been good. Can't complain.

Work: Same. Although I do feel like I'm getting to do more exciting things and that I'm being taken seriously as a person who is really here to make a difference. I also feel that I am taking it more seriously and thinking outside of the box and using this job to get experience where I need it.
Also, I have been active doing some outside stuff. Just helped a friend with a charity auction (however minimal my help was) and now we are working on a booksigning. Fun. I also met this woman who is starting a non-profit and be get to do some grantwriting and event planning work with her. And I go to PRCA meetings as often as possible. I am determined to make my dreams come true which is why.....

I've applied to graduate school. We'll see how that goes.

Friends: I have the best friends. I am working hard to maintain relationships because I haven't in the past.

shh!

it used to be that i could not sit still. now i find myself doing so more often not for long periods of time, mind you. but every little bit counts. im starting to appreciate quiet...

the desire to do better....

I just feel that I could be doing so much better with my life. I've never been one to make plans because I'm afraid that my feelings will get hurt when I don't follow through. And I don't follow through very often.

But here I am, sitting in the junky room, playing on facebook and writing this blog where there are other things I should be doing. Like cleaning my room or trying to figure out my career or going back to school, working out. All of these things right now would make me a better person.

So 2009 is my year - or at least that's what I keep saying. I have to do something new. Life is unexciting. Not boring - I have too much fun. But I don't feel like there's anything in my life that is helping my brain grow. So, my goals for 2009 (I'll keep it simple so that a year from now I won't be looking at this thing thinking "I had plans. I didn't do any of them.)

1. Be more responsible. Clean room, well-managed money, nice, professional wardrobe, sensible thinking and planning. Those types of things make a well-rounded person. And I have none of those things. Since college I have mismanaging EVERYTHING. But you will only get out of life the same amount you put in and I want alot. So I must learn the difference between want and need and take care of what I have (Jada, your want/need signs were a success!!!).

2. Take care of my body. My body feels great when I exercise and eat right. My body feels bad when I'm lazy and eat a bunch of junk. I realize now how bad I feel with all the sugar and heavy food in my body and I don't even enjoy the sweets as much as a really good salad or sandwich (except ice cream and cheesecake...lol). I'm gonna have this body for a long time so I should treat it right.

3. Advance my career. It's time to go back to school. Plan for the fall (???)

See, three simple things. But the require me to get off my ass and get motivated....the worlds hardest thing....