I got an....interesting text the other day. Some guy wanting to know how I felt after our night together. So I respond "Who are you?" and he goes "Oh, I forgot I slipped that pill in your drink so you probably don't remember what happened."

Uh, ok.

Turns out he had texted the wrong girl. But know you've told me two things about yourself:
1. You have to drug girls to get some.
2. You are gross enough to contact the girl to taunt her about that night.

NOT HOT!

A friend and I talk about catches. Men are just like any other item. If you want something good, you gotta look for quality - and quality is hard to find. We say you can't buy Gucci in Simply Fashions - you have to go upscale.

Obviously, this guy is from the 99 cent bin at Dollar General.

I have a few rules. Some say I'm stuck up but whatever. I can do bad by myself.

1. You have to have a car. Sorry, I'm not picking you up. I am not your ride. And you are not taking my car. It's different if we're talking on a solid basis and I pick you up sometimes. But at the age that I am and in the place that I live in you have to have a car to get around! If you don't have to means to get a decent car, you are probably not going to be able to keep up.

2. You have to be doing something and have the desire to want more. I don't care if you don't have that dream job because I don't. But if you are a janitor, be the best janitor....but don't aspire to be in the same spot all your life.

3. I am not an ATM. Ask for money to soon and I'm out.

4. Know how to act and dress in public. If I can't take you anywhere, I won't! I'm the next Michelle Obama (you didn't know?)

5. If you are too closed-minded, I can't handle it. Open up your world.

That shouldn't be too hard....sigh.....

5. Y

LOL

Loves it. I hate Diddy.

the desire to do better....

I just feel that I could be doing so much better with my life. I've never been one to make plans because I'm afraid that my feelings will get hurt when I don't follow through. And I don't follow through very often.

But here I am, sitting in the junky room, playing on facebook and writing this blog where there are other things I should be doing. Like cleaning my room or trying to figure out my career or going back to school, working out. All of these things right now would make me a better person.

So 2009 is my year - or at least that's what I keep saying. I have to do something new. Life is unexciting. Not boring - I have too much fun. But I don't feel like there's anything in my life that is helping my brain grow. So, my goals for 2009 (I'll keep it simple so that a year from now I won't be looking at this thing thinking "I had plans. I didn't do any of them.)

1. Be more responsible. Clean room, well-managed money, nice, professional wardrobe, sensible thinking and planning. Those types of things make a well-rounded person. And I have none of those things. Since college I have mismanaging EVERYTHING. But you will only get out of life the same amount you put in and I want alot. So I must learn the difference between want and need and take care of what I have (Jada, your want/need signs were a success!!!).

2. Take care of my body. My body feels great when I exercise and eat right. My body feels bad when I'm lazy and eat a bunch of junk. I realize now how bad I feel with all the sugar and heavy food in my body and I don't even enjoy the sweets as much as a really good salad or sandwich (except ice cream and cheesecake...lol). I'm gonna have this body for a long time so I should treat it right.

3. Advance my career. It's time to go back to school. Plan for the fall (???)

See, three simple things. But the require me to get off my ass and get motivated....the worlds hardest thing....

..........

I drink too much. Fight with people I shouldn't even talk to. Feel shitty today. And I need to clean or do something productive today.

I should read something. I feel like my IQ is lower by the second.

I'm ready to start dressing like my heart....

I am nutting up (as my roommate would say)!!!

grr...so much time, so little to do....yet so much I could be doing....

and I'm thinking about shopping of course.....no one likes my jacket that I got from dillard's. my roommates said it was ugly. But I gotta wear it and I like it. glad no one in the office said anything. But I think they know better.

I need some skinny pants to go with this bright purple, pink and black top I brought this weekend. And some black tights for a babydoll-esque dress I brought this weekend. And I have to remember to paint- oops I mean polish (my roommate says you don't paint your nails) my toes so I can wear my new mustard Nine West shoes with the ethnic print skirt I brought yesterday. And I found 2 pairs of shoes in the Goodwill. Life is good.

But yes, I want to dress like my heart. Not what people believe I should wear but what I like. Things that would make me stand out from the crowd.

5 items in my closet that represent my heart.
1. Diamond-encrusted Hello Kitty necklace. Ok so it's glass, not diamond. But it's meant to represent diamonds and we all send our representatives out everyday. I lieterally want to put this on everyday. Ok, not literally.

2. Black and white checkered dress with huge pockets. The famous bucket dress. Those who know about this one, know.

3. Peep toe shoes. I have at least 2 dozen pair....and I am probably underestimating.

4. Green clutch. You have to see it to understand. Beautiful.

5. Skinny jeans from Old Navy. Alot of people can't wear Old Navy jean. But I can. I want to wear them everyday!

This is just pure boredom here.....

So many productive things I could be doing but this is what I am doing!