blogging through the boredom

I'm just bored at work. This place is really trying to take over my life but if I keep working I will have money, right?

So I'm sitting here with a book. A coworker said what are you reading? I picked my book to show her the cover and she turned her nose up! "Alice Walker?! You can keep that!". Wow! Are you serious? Its Alice Walker! I pity your world!

Big Changes

Wow, its been forever since I've written. LOTS has happened. Let's recap te spring in summer, shall we?

Probably the biggest news: I QUIT! That's right, I left my job. There were lots of problems there and it definately was not a place I could grow personally or professionally. I got to the point where I wasn't sleeping at night for stewing. But I got the nerve to walk away from the most unlikely of places:

In New Orleans, Jen, Jada and I stopped at a voodoo shop because Jen wanted some candles. Basically, a guy walked up to me and told me that I was struggling. I was surrounded by people who were afraid of my power and ability (little old me?!) and that they were, knowingly or unknowingly, repressing me because I didn't realize how powerful and able I am and they knew it. He told that I knew what was best for me in this situation and that even though people are advising me to not to what I truly wanted, I needed to follow my own intution.

So we went to another shop and I was chatting with the guy there. After talking about snakes and successfully freaking us out, the man said, "Do you love your job?" I said no; he said "Then don't do you. It kills you to do things you hate so don't. That's not the type of person you are". Then he tell me EXACTLY what the other guy said plus that I thrive working with people, Mobile is too small for me and I wouldn't be there long (I HOPE!!!), and that I would come to a time where I would be begging people to treat me fairly but they will all turn their backs on you and that I would be able to tell that they are lying to me because they will never look at me with lies. And I'll be damned that in a meeting about a week later, I was sitting there damn near begging them to come to a fair compromise while two supervisors (at my request) looked at each other for most of the meeting and the supervisor with whom I was having issues never looked at me except to say "I'd like your letter of resignation by the end of the day". I cried because it was so eerie.

And I'm so much happier. Not a day has passed that I have regretted that decision.

Other news, I went to Chicago, I'm not on speaking terms with him, I'm working on my career while finishing grad school, I've decided to go for natural hair (What a process!!!!) and I am getting my own place.

Exciting things are ahead, I feel it.

Tonight is our last APT 422 party. I will miss my roomies but I know that living on my own is the next natural step and it will help me get some new opportunities.

Here's to the work day going by quickly so I can party all night. Ciao.

Back from Mexico and Lord knows I don't want to be.

woke up feeling great. refreshed and uncluttered.
beautiful.
now for homework and cleaning. my room looks like a disaster!

Are you waiting for a special occasion

To give me your heart

Cause I need a little confirmation

To make a real start

Don't wait till it's too late

Are you ready to show me?

Are you ready to love me?

You see in a wayI have been drifting down a river

To nowhere

And you're giving me nothing

And if you're ready to be my everything

If you're ready to see it through this time

And if you're ready for love then

This I will bring

But I'm not gonna wait for you forever this time

Fefe Dobson - "Everything"

I love that song. Very approppiate.

Fresh from Seattle/Cali trip.

Life is good. I am very blessed.

AWELTTAES

In Seattle for a few days. Much needed get away. There is too much to think about and deal with in Mobile. I have some real thinking to do after last night. It was interesting.

But I ain't thinking today.....

New motto

New motto: IDGAF.

Sad but true.

Not in a good place right now.